If Only I Could Save One Of My Own

I am not a person who can give up hope at the drop of a hat.

I have been struggling with an inner sadness which haunts me everyday.

I know that I can not save anyone but myself, but I hope that the one who I can not save will soon wake up to the light side of his inner soul and begins to slowly save himself from his own personal demons.

It saddens me that he chooses to sleep his life away instead of letting himself live and enjoy the simple pleasures of life.

The smell of the Flowers ... The chirping of the birds ... A child's spontaneous laughter ... The blue skies up above ... The love of a true soul mate, which he apparently hasn't found yet.

My heart goes out to him every day when I wake up in hopes that he will feel my unconditional love reaching his heart.

I would give anything for him to be happy again ... all depressing thoughts drifting away to the place of no return.

You are my youngest bro and I love you with all of my heart no matter what bad decisions you had made in the past I don't hold those bad decisions against you.

I will never make you feel bad. I will never treat you like you are lesser of a person than I am. My positive energy is directed toward you little bro and I really hope that it finds you soon.

Our ages are so close because you needed me there for you when we were abandoned by one of our parents. I no longer hold it against you for sharing the same bday cake as me when we were growing up. I realized a long time ago that it wasn't your fault because mom just couldn't afford to celebrate two bdays so close together with only two days between them.

If only I could save one of my own it would be wonderful because then my bro could start living a happier life and not be depressed anymore.

I love you bro and I always will, no matter what. You are a shining star in my heart forever bro.